Second Life Syndrome

(LP, 2011)

SIDE A

1. After 03:31
2. Volte-Face 08:40
3. Conceiving You 03:39

SIDE B

1. Second Life Syndrome 15:40

SIDE C

1. Artificial Smile 05:27
2. I Turned You Down 04:34
3. Reality Dream III 05:01 (instrumental)

SIDE D

1. Dance With The Shadow 11:38
2. Before 05:23

  • Duration:
    63:34
  • Size:
    12"
  • Speed:
    33 rpm
  • Weight:
    180g
  • Label:
    Inside Out (0504171 / IOMLP 231)
  • Release Date:
    August 1st, 2011
  • Music:
    Riverside
  • Lyrics:
    Mariusz Duda
  • Recording:
    Magda & Robert Srzedniccy, Serakos Studio 2005
  • Mix:
    Magda & Robert Srzedniccy, Serakos Studio 2005
  • Mastering:
    Jacek Gawłowski & MasterLab
  • Production:
    Riverside, Magda & Robert Srzedniccy
  • Illustration, Design & Layout:
    Travis Smith @ Seempieces
Second Life Syndrome

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Members:

Mariusz Duda

Mariusz Duda vocals, bass guitar, acoustic guitar

Piotr Grudziński

Piotr Grudziński electric guitars

Piotr Kozieradzki

Piotr Kozieradzki drums & percussion

Michał Łapaj

Michał Łapaj keyboard instruments, hammond, theremin, vocal

Lirycs

  • After

    I can’t take anymore
    I can’t breathe
    I’m sick of this goddamn darkness,
    Sick of sadness and tears I throw it all up every single day
    Together with last night’s dinner

    I have lost myself completely
    I have convinced myself I am someone else

    For God’s sake,
    I need to be real
    I need touch
    I need… people?

    I have to turn my life around…

    But… I will still be myself, won’t I…?

  • Volte-Face

    I have spent all my previous life
    Waiting for something else to start
    Now I see that I have felt so numb
    To everything that passed me by

    Need to go land on my own two feet
    Need to change my life this way
    Need to free my mind of memories
    Watch them how they screw my brain

    The time that has come
    Convinced what I feel inside
    In darkness I float
    How far is the light?

    Inside – fearland
    Don’t want you to know
    Outside – fearless
    I do want you to watch
    Do you mind?

    Would you step aside
    Make way for me
    Can’t you see I’m dead set on doing this

    Enough of dreamless nights
    Enough of sleepless nights
    I’m the way I am
    Get out of my sight
    DO YOU MIND?

    You can put me in the lion’s cage
    You can take my soul
    Give a second name
    But I don’t intend to stop my fight
    And I’m not afraid
    NOT AFRAID

  • Conceiving You

    I’ve been watching you
    Not waiting for the right moment to make the first move
    Do you want to know
    Why I keep avoiding your eyes
    And why I’m running away?
    It’s crazy, I know

    I’ve been conceiving you for too long

    Or maybe I’m destined to be alone?
    Or maybe there’s someone who will understand
    That I’m not able to share my world?
    I’m still running away
    It’s crazy, I know

    I’ve been conceiving you for too long
    If only I could change all things around

    Still conceiving you all along…

    I’ve been conceiving you for too long
    If only I could change all things around
    I’ve been conceiving you for too long
    I’ve grown used to that

    Still conceiving you all along…

  • Second Life Syndrome

    Part One – From hand to mouth

    From day to day
    From hand to mouth
    We’re turning around
    Vicious ritual

    Getting used to it all
    Falling down again
    We’re waiting for
    The decrees of providence

    I don’t want to waste
    Any more of my life
    Live from day to day
    Live from hand to mouth

    Facing the light
    I brush aside your plans
    I’m going to have
    It all my own way

    And when that all shattered I felt I’d broken my fall
    Couldn’t pretend that I felt strong about us anymore
    Without your help I finally started to live my own life
    I just want you to know this time

    Part Two – Secret Exhibition

    I just want to feel your sigh on my neck
    Want to feel your breath
    Feel your need to stay
    You don’t know my name
    Don’t know my face
    Only thoughts I share in my secret place

    Secret exhibition
    Cure for loneliness
    I’ve ground to a halt
    There’s no turning back
    You know there are things I just can’t forget
    You’ve helped me so much
    To learn to be detached

    But when that all shattered I felt I’d broken my fall
    Couldn’t pretend that I felt strong about us anymore
    Without that help I finally started to live my own life
    And I know I don’t need you now

    Secret exhibition
    Cure for loneliness
    Life is much too short to be whiled away with tears
    Secret exhibition
    Cure for loneliness
    I erase you now
    I don’t need you now
    I erase you now with all of my past

    Part Three – Vicious Ritual (instrumental)

  • Artificial Smile

    Hi my friend
    Shake my hand
    Tell your lie
    With your artificial smile
    Don’t be mad
    I just want to help you
    To say these words out loud

    I don’t like you cause they like you
    I hate you cause they love you
    I wish you ill cause they wish you well
    I’m so happy when they f you

    Strike a blow
    For my fall
    Crush me down
    And just say these words out loud

    I don’t like you cause they like you
    I hate you cause they love you
    I wish you ill cause they wish you well
    I’m so happy when they f you

    And this is what we do
    And this is who we are
    Why don’t you want to stop
    You always see my life up against your life

    I don’t like you cause they like you
    I hate you cause they love you
    I wish you ill cause they wish you well
    I’m so happy when they f you

    Tell me your lie!!!

  • I Turned You Down

    I turned you down so hastily
    And it’s tearing me apart
    In my heart of hearts I’m screaming
    In my heart of hearts I cry
    And it’s cold
    So cold

    I turned you down
    Oh, I turned you down so thoughtlessly
    And it’s tearing me apart
    In my heart of hearts I’m screaming
    In my heart of hearts I cry
    How I wish you told me that

    I wish you’d told me that before
    I wish you’d told me that before
    I wish you’d told me that before

    I turned you down

  • Dance With The Shadow

    Pull myself together – holding on
    Standing at the point of no return
    Keeping on the right side of my heart
    And the moment of truth is falling on me now

    I don’t care if what I want
    Is written in my eyes
    You can think of me what you feel
    I don’t really mind
    How about laughing at my habits
    At my needs
    I’m afraid I’ll stay unmoved
    Know I have to be

    Before you come and tell me who I am
    Before you try to make me someone else
    Step out of your line, out of line
    Step out of your line

    I don’t care if what I want
    Is written in my eyes
    You can think of me what you feel
    I don’t really mind
    How about spitting venom in my face again
    I’m afraid I’ll stay unmoved
    You just waste your breath

    Before you come and tell me who I am
    Before you try to make me someone else
    Step out of your line
    Step out of line

    Shall we dance my friend?

    Join in the shadow dance
    Join in the shadow dance
    Join in the shadow dance
    Join in the shadow dance

    I’m standing on the edge, about to fall
    In the middle of the point of no return
    Trying to forget those days I failed to act
    I’m not going to back out
    I’ve come too far

    I can almost see the light
    Feel its warmth
    And touch the moment I was waiting for so long
    I carried all before me
    Now the die is cast
    With open arms I’m standing out against my past

  • Before

    I’ve become resistant to myself
    To my weaknesses and pain
    I’ve become the one who wants to live
    and just feel alive again

    I’ve changed myself

    I’ve become addicted to being strong
    Started out my second life
    And the remnants of your tears and smiles
    Shift deleted from my mind

    Without knowing how it hurts…
    I feel safe

    Without knowing how it hurts…
    I feel safe

    Is this
    What I
    Really
    Wanted?